Friday, May 31, 2013

the following week

So baby Fallon has been here for 1 week! Everything is going surprisingly well. I think its because I got all of the practice I needed with Calli and since she's only 20 months old everything is coming back to me, or it never really left lol. Breast feeding is going extremely well! Fallon nurses like a champ and has a perfect latch. At almost a week old she has already surpassed her birth weight, and newborn clothes are already fitting her a little snug. At this point I can already tell that Fallon has her own little personality. Even though she's only been here a little over a week it feels like she's always been apart of our family. 


Wednesday, May 29, 2013

Its the big day!

Following up on my previous post, 

So I was having contractions all morning but hadn't realized they were contractions until around 12:30. I was out with Calli all morning and we were at the mall when I realized that the cramps were actually consistent contractions and I needed to head home. I called Randee on my way home and at that point my contractions were 7-8 minutes apart and told him I was having contractions and he should meet me at the house. I could hear in his voice the nervousness and told him not to stress out. Once Calli and I got home I made her some lunch and jumped in the shower. When I got out of the shower my contractions were about 5 minutes apart so I finished packing my hospital bag and things that I would need. Randee came in and was in a panic lol. He started grabbing everything and loading up the car and getting Calli ready to drop her off with family. Even though this was his second go round he was just as nervous as the first!

By the time we left the house my contractions were 3-4 minutes apart. They hurt and I couldn't talk through them but definitely not unbearable. We dropped Calli off with my sister and headed to the hospital. On the drive to the hospital I swear I probably have 30 contractions lol. At that point they were about 3 minutes apart and a little stronger but still not unbearable.

We got to the hospital at around 2:30 and they checked me and my contractions were every 3 minutes and I was 5cm dilated, 85% effaced. I got all checked in and moved over to a labor and delivery room at around 2:45. Once we were in the labor and delivery room and made it known that I wanted the epidural and the nurse said that the anesthesiologist would be in shortly for the epidural. I got all of my iv's in and filled out a bunch of papers as I waited for the epidural. The contractions were still about 2-3 minutes apart but seemed to be getting stronger. They weren't unbearable but I definitely needed to focus on my breathing to get through them.

I got the epidural around 3:50 and I asked how long it would take before it kicked in. The nurse said that it should work within 15-20 minutes but that I should feel the contractions less intense each time. About 10 minutes went by and the contractions were getting worse and not better so the nurse left the room to get the anesthesiologist to adjust my epidural. It seemed like as soon as she left the room my next contraction was 1,000 times worse and a couple minutes after that my water broke. At that point the contractions were unbearable and I began to cry. The anesthesiologist came in the room and upped the dose and said that I should feel relief soon but the pain was only getting worse. The nurse said that if I felt any pressure that I should go ahead and push. I told that nurse that I didn't want to push because I wanted the epidural to work. She said that if I have the urge to push that I needed to push and it would  actually feel better. I cried and said that I didn't want to push but with each contraction about 1 minute apart I could feel pressure and that I was pushing without even trying. I told the nurse that I was pushing and she said not to and called the doctor in. The pain was ridiculous but at that point it all went so fast. The doctor rushed and said that with the next contraction I could start to push. 4 pushes later Fallon was born. May 22, 2013 at 4:22pm. The epidural never worked but as soon as she was born I totally forgot about the pain. 
I had my beautiful completely healthy baby girl in my arms. 

starting to push
pushing

his face pretty much the whole time lol

after only 4 pushes

shes beautiful

love at first sight




6lbs 12oz 20in










A day for the 2 of us?..

May 22, 2013
So after being completely obsessed with going into labor and doing everything I could to naturally induce labor I decided that  I would stop stop obsessing over it and she would come when she was ready. To get my mind off of all things baby and labor and delivery I decided that Calli and I would have a fun filled mommy daughter day. I knew I would probably be having her sister within the next few days and just wanted to take some time for just the 2 of us. 

We started our morning by going out to breakfast at ihop. Calli sat with me in the booth and we colored waiting for our food. I usually don't order her a meal for herself because I just share what I get but I was extremely hungry on this morning and did not want to share lol. I ordered Calli the pancake smily face and she was so amused. She spent more time looking and poking at it than she did eating it. We wrapped up our breakfast and then headed to the park.


coloring at breakfast

smiley face pancake! :)

breakfast date :)

cutie at breakfast

It was such a nice day out so we went to a nearby park. The park had a small jungle gym and slide which I thought was the perfect size for Calli but she really did not want anything to do with it. She spent most of the time at the park running around in the grass laughing as I chased after her. We had to cut our time at the park short when a lady came into the park and let her dog off of the leash to just run around freely. I got all of our things and decided that we would just go to the mall.

enjoying the park

smelling the flowers

Calli fell asleep in the short car ride to the mall so I spent some time walking around, shopping a little bit, and even got my eyebrows done lol. Once she woke up from her nap we went into the play area for kids and she had a blast just running around with the other kids and climbing on the toys.

playing at the mall

I woke up that morning with some cramps but I had been having random cramps for the past few days so I didn't  even really think about them. Once we were at the mall I realized that the cramps weren't going away but were actually pretty consistent and thats when I realized I was having contractions and they were coming pretty regular. My contractions were actually coming about every 7 minutes apart so Calli and I had to cut our day short and head home. 

Its so crazy to think that was my morning the day Fallon was born. It was perfect, spending that time with my princess before we would welcome our next princess into the world.

Sunday, May 19, 2013

almost here..

Im ready for our littlest princess to be here already! Yes because I'm reaching this point of pregnancy where I am very uncomfortable and I want my body back. But mainly because I want to start things as a  family of 4. I'm so anxious to see how everything will change and to start getting adjusted. During these final weeks the waiting is the hardest to do. I know things will change so much once she gets here and I want to get a start on everything. Its crazy that its taken 9 months to grow a baby and all of the slow changes that happen to my body over that time. But once she's born everything will change in the blink of an eye. 

Sunday, May 12, 2013

Mother's Day

Mother's Day is one of my favorite holidays. Not because of the flowers and chocolates, or breakfast in bed, or nice jewelry. I love that it is a day to appreciate everything that moms do. But I also love it because it is a time to look back at all of the ups and downs of motherhood and to take in all of the joys of being a mother.
I became a mom almost 2 years ago. Calli was born on September 10, 2011 at 11:13am and she has changed my life so much. I could never imagine loving anyone as much as I love her and now that I'm in the final weeks of this pregnancy I feel the same way about Fallon even though she isn't even here yet. 
I haven't been a mom for long but I feel like it is what I am meant to do. I think there is one thing in my life that I know for sure and that is that I'm a good mother. I love my girls like crazy and I always put them first and do everything I do is for them. I don't do it for the gifts on Mother's Day or for any type of recognition. I do it for the smiles, laughs, hugs, cuddles, the feeling I get when I hear mommy, and the I love you.

Calli a couple of days old. In awe that she is actually mine.

Our first easter.
Calli just a few weeks old. I cant believe i get to be her mommy!



Calli on her 1 year birthday.


My silly but sweet girl.


Fallon!


So beautiful!


Shy is front of the camera lol. 

36wks down, 4 more weeks to go.

Starting my maternity leave today and there's so much I want to get done in the next few weeks before the baby gets here. Of course I want to get in a little rest too but between taking care of a 20 month old toddler and nesting I'm not sure how much rest I'll be able to get. I'm 36 weeks pregnant today and its amazing how fast the time has gone and how my body has been able to grow a human life. Thinking about it truly amazes me. I know I've been complaining about the pains of pregnancy and my growing uncomfortableness to my family and friends but I really do enjoy being pregnant and will cherish these last few weeks of carrying my princess around with me in my belly.


Saturday, May 4, 2013

Sisters

I really believe that the best gift you can give your child is a sibling. There is no bond like the bond of siblings. They are each others first friends, and forever friends. They share the bond of growing up with the same crazy mother and father in the same crazy family and will always have memories and stories to tell about their childhood.
I always wanted Calli to have a sibling and there was no doubt in my mind that she would but I am so happy that she'll have a sister. A sister so close in age that she will grow up with and hopefully be best friends.

"A sister is a gift to the heart, a friend to the spirit, a golden thread to the meaning of life. " ~Isadora James
Giving her sissy hugs


Giving her sissy hugs.


Both my babies.


Kisses for her sissy.