Sunday, March 24, 2013

29 weeks pregnant

They say each pregnancy is different and from experience i can say it is completely true! When I look back at the pregnancy with my daughter Calli, it was pretty much a breeze. I had little to no uncomfortable pregnancy symptoms and I always felt great. This pregnancy is much different than the last and I think the one symptom that I can do without is the complete exhaustion and tiredness. I am tired ALL THE TIME. I don't have time to be tired, I have a very rambunctious 18 month old, a demanding job, a household to keep up with, and a husband to maintain a relationship with. 
With all of the joys of pregnancy this is definitely not one of them. I know this is just the being of my exhaustion because becoming a mom of 2 little ones under 2 will be no walk in the park.
just a preview of whats to come.

Tuesday, March 19, 2013

multiplied by 3

Having another baby really stresses me out at times. I have a million questions running around in my head that i ask myself about how my life is going to change in the next 11 weeks.
How will i do it?
Will i ever sleep again?
How will i juggle 2 kids, along with working, and a husband?
Will i ever lose the baby weight?
but the biggest question i have that has really been weighing on me is how will i love another little human being as much as i love Calli?
I really had to think about it. When Calli came my love for Randee didn't change or become any less, it just multiplied. Rather than breaking my heart in 3 equal pieces for each of them my love will only multiply and I'll have 3 whole hearts for each of them.

Thursday, March 14, 2013

our fairy tale

There are some days where my husband drives me completely crazy and everything he does seems to irritate me. those days are becoming few and far between. I would say this last month has really opened my eyes to the wonderful husband he is trying to be, the amazing father has has become, and the better man that he is striving for. 
his command christmas party 2012
He has really shown me the wonderful husband that he can be, the reason I married him 5.29.2009. We have been through so much and I'm so happy with where we are right now in our relationship. I think we have truly reached a point of our marriage where it feels like we are one.

He is an amazing father and seeing him with our daughter completely melts my heart. The love he has for her is unreal, the smile he gets when he's with her is breath taking, the way she can get her way with just a smile is a given. Seeing them play together is the highlight of my day and makes everything else seem irrelevant.

wedding day 5.29.2009
If you were to ask me 4 years ago where we would be I would have given you some some dramatic fairy tale answer. Although our lives together are far from a fairy tale he makes me feel like I am a queen and treats our daughter like a princess.
I am truly blessed.